The blog name "Bigger Than This" comes from a song I wrote and will share here. Sometimes we can be so caught up in the midst of our own sufferings and struggles that we fail to see the bigger picture! That's where I found myself a couple of years ago. As a Christian, a wife & a mother to 3, I found myself in the midst of a devastating situation. Of course I went through the usual grieving and questioning, and woe is me and it was with good reason I felt that way, as my life as I knew it had changed dramatically! Uncertain of what I was to do from here and feeling that this was so unfair...I just continued to say and believe it had to be bigger than this. There had to be more that can be said about my life than what seemed like trial after trial.
As always, when I cried to God I was reminded that there is more than I can see, there's a bigger picture than I can't yet fathom, there's a God who understands, who grieves with me, who wants to take what's broken and turn it around for good. I was reminded that someone may be watching...someone who may need to see me walking out my faith, someone who may just need to see me struggle yet cling to the hope I know is in Christ, someone who needs to see me hold fast to His promises, someone who needs to know Him as their Lord and Savior! And so I wrote this little poem and the song below posted on my youtube page...neither of which follows the "rules" of rhyming and format and such but they were straight from my heart to God's...so I hope in someway it touches you.
I often fight the path He chose,
To my Father I cry on my knees in woe.
I spill my thoughts, my concerns, my cares,
How this way can't be right, it seems so unfair?
I'm reminded the wisdom I found thus far,
Came not in life's comforts but from out of the dark,
In a place I thought I'd never be, that's forced me to humility.
With my vision renewed I will carry on.
Must view my life a sacrifice, the path with thorns brings joy unknown.
(excuse the video quality and words are below...)
Verse1:
Tell me my life is bigger than this, than all of the cards life deals, Tell me my life is bigger than this, than all of the hurts I feel.
Chorus:
And though I cry to You, and question why to You, I still find, the only hope I have is YOU. Is this my sacrifice to You, so that the world might see You...cause I can't see the way, quite like You do, so Jesus just pull me thru, cause I know that Your ways are bigger than this...
I know that your ways...they've gotta be bigger, more than this life, You're purpose is bigger...I know that your ways are bigger than this!